not a good excuse but....

Its been a very very long time since I wrote a post. I feel pretty bad about it. I've done lots of blog-worthy things but just haven't put them down.  Its easy for me to get overwhelmed and distracted when things aren't going the way I want them to. And for the past few months, its been one thing after another.  I had to move out of my apartment back in June and back into my parent's place. I love them and appreciate them letting their almost-thirty-year-old daughter crash with them, but there is a horrible defeated feeling that goes along with it. I feel bad that I can't afford to be on my own at my age. Absolutely horrible. I went to college thinking that I was going to improve my life and become independent. I'm not where I want to be at all. I lost my job at the end of the year. I saw it coming and decided that I better not get myself into a new lease when I didn't know when or if I would get another paycheck. I've been trying to keep myself busy between the few and far between job openings I apply for and I opened an etsy shop, which you can see here : Its been fun, although I think I might actually be losing money on it.

A lot of people have been asking me about my beehives. Two out of three have made it through the worst of the winter, although one is pretty weak.  I will probably go into spring with one good hive. I got some advice from a more experienced beekeeper I recently met and he believes I may be able to preform a "split" on one of the hives; divide it into two in early spring. This makes me hopeful because I really can't afford to buy more bees this spring. Unemployment checks don't leave me with a lot of extra cash. I'll probably only have one or two hives this summer but its better than none. I'll still have bees. I never got around to posting but we got about 90 lbs of honey last summer. I went to a beekeeping class last weekend and met some really nice local people that I can work with and communicate with so I'm looking forward to spring. 

Its easy to start feeling sorry for myself when considering the many trials and tribulations that me and my family has been going through lately and it actually takes real effort to feel good sometimes but I try to think about all the things I have to be thankful for. One being my new nephew, who was born a little less than a week ago. He is perfect and a wonderful reminder of all the things I have to look forward to. That's about all I have to say right now. I want to get around to posting some pictures of the bees over the summer and some little side projects I've been working on. I'll do it soon....

One of the things I wanted to do when I first set up this blog is to start putting up songs I like. I was driving around yesterday and heard this one for the first time. I listen to country music all the time but I have never once heard this one and now I know that its been out for a while now. How did I never hear it? I think I've played it 17 1/2 times since I heard it yesterday.